It Will Be Okay.

It's been almost thirty-six hours since saying goodbye to my brother Alex, and almost thirty-nine hours since saying goodbye to my sister Zigeel. But it will be okay.

Everything today reminded me of Alex. I went to the mall and all I could think of was all the times we hung out there, and then saying goodbye there, less than twenty-four hours ago at the time. An hour ago, I decided to watch a movie that I knew wouldn't remind me of him, and instead one of the actresses looked so much like Zigeel. I will never stop thinking of them, but it will be ok.

After saying goodbye to Alex, I was crying so hard that Lorenz had to try to calm me down, which only helped a little. I've spent the last day and a half crying to the point where I can barely breathe or see through the years, but it will be okay.

And now, if I try hard enough, I can hug my yearbook and I can feel Alex hugging me, and I can feel him reaching down and rubbing my back. I think it will be okay.

And Now, I Present to You, a Bullet List of the School Year So Far

• still hanging with people a year younger than me and people a year older than me but staying far away from anyone in my grade
• also I hang with the international students but most of them hate me
• Leonie from Germany likes me
• and I think I've adopted Arda from Turkey as my own because I've always wanted a puppy
• Classes are alright
• I have a year-long spare which I spend with Daniela in her science class copying whatever Gallifreyan language she brings for me
• It's awesome!
• I'm also in the drama club
• We're doing "Bye Bye Birdie" and I got the role of Mrs. Peterson
• Which is awesome
• Because I don't have to sing!

That should be all you need to know to keep up with the following entries!

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Well, This is Embarrassing. I Suppose I Owe You an Explanation.

Unfortunately there's no excuse for being lazy.
A quick summary of the school year will be posted no later than Wednesday and regular blogging will recommence.


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My New Plan

I decided that next school year, I will work it. And by 'work it,' I mean I WILL WORK IT! I've made a list of what I've started doing, and what I'll be doing this year in order to get a head-start on becoming what I want to be:

• I'll be losing a bit of weight. OK, a lot of weight. But I really need to! I'm quite big, and even though I'm fine with it, others might not be, and it really isn't all about what I think of myself, is it? Well, that's what everyone says, that it all depends on what you think of yourself, but I respectfully disagree. I can't fully not care at all what people think of me. I want people to like me and to want to know me. I depend on attention to get myself through the day. So if I lose weight and get a better-looking body, I believe that I will be able to carry myself in a way that'll get me more attention. I'm totally cool with the way my body looks, but a thinner bod would be so much better.
• I'll be growing my nails. I just really want some longer nails! I always peel of my nails out of habit, but I'm trying to stop. I want to grow my nails out long so I can wear nail strips, of which I bought myself a pack.
• I'll be completely re-vamping my wardrobe. I'll be posting another entry for this one, hopefully tomorrow!
• I'll be growing my hair longer. Again, this'll be mentioned in a future entry!

That's all I can think of so far, I'll add to the list! It's like I'll be giving myself a full-on makeover, and I can't wait!

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(That's another thing I'll be doing, finishing my entries with an x. It's cool.)

Unfortunately I'm Far Too Lazy to Complete the 30-Day Challenges.

So it'll take quite a while to finish them. I'll still finish them, probably, but I won't do them every day. I haven't gotten much Internet in the past few so there's my excuse. I'm going to a new entry now, to blog about my whole new plan!

30-Day Michael Jackson Challenge: Day 09

Your favourite era.


Dangerous! I have a concert DVD from that era. :D

30-Day Harry Potter Challenge: Day 09

(I still need time to figure out my answer to the 8th challenge.)

What would be your favourite lesson?

I know this may make me seem like a fangirl, but I would like Defense Against the Dark Arts, but only if Remus Lupin was teaching it. He was obviously the best DADA professor Hogwarts has had in a long time. But, unfortunately, he's not with us anymore, so I'd probably enjoy Tranfiguration!